My son was talking to me about one of his classmate who doesn’t go to school anymore because of drug addiction. He relates that, this classmate learned how to use Methamphetamine because of the child’s father, he would always come home high on drugs and beats his mother and abuses his sister; and being the youngest in the family, he could do nothing but endure the situation; that also drove him to become a user in order to forget this misfortune in his life. My son feels that it’s unfair for parents, especially to fathers who do this kind of horror to his family, but as sad and moving as the story was, all I could do is to console my child. In the article Drugs and Teens: What can parents do, we learn that even to the most caring and careful parents there will always be danger of their children getting hooked on drugs, and the only way we can win this battle is to learn to decipher the signs of drug addiction in their behaviour, and to learn how to communicate with a defiant teenager. Another schoolmate, who’s parents is in the Medicare Prescription Drug Coverage business also fell into this prey when this girl got hooked up with the wrong crowd and started to learn “experimenting.” Most parents would be in denial; “Not my little Johnny?!” but doing so and keeping a blind eye, won’t help your child, severe drug addiction often leads to a more tragic result, like suicide. Parents should be regarded for their undying love and devotion to their children, and the hard work they put in taking care of the family and meeting their needs, but we should not fall into the trap of being too busy to even talk to them everyday, when they most need our counsel before everything goes out of hand.

On the physical aspect, I guess I would like to have a breast augmentation, yes, seriously! However, having read every article that is to be found about the dangers of breast augmentation, I just simply changed my mind and I guess if there’s one thing that I want to change about myself is my status in life. At other times, I’ve been thinking of removing my warts on my face, but after my consultation with a dermatologist, I learned that it’s hereditary and even if I burn my face to the ground, an exaggeration of course, all of it would return. So I just stayed away from fatty foods, like chicken and hotdogs.

But I also want improvement in my educational attainment, financial status and relationships, that’s what I’m aiming for.

How about you? What do you want to change about yourself?

Just when I thought everything will be found at peril’s hand, there I found a PHP200 in my jeans back pocket!

Yes, I haven’t been paid for most of the gigs that I’m doing that’s why I’m having another feeling of hopelessness, and another round when I’m having those days again, darn hormonal imbalance!

I am having a lot of disappointments with myself because of one little mistake that I made. When I moved here, I was led to believe that I had my own electric meter, and the bill directly goes to my landlord, however, just this morning was a shock to me, when she asked me to pay her PHP2000 for my electric bill. When I asked her of my bill, she showed it to me, but added that there are still two people more sharing with me! If I am going to pay my actual bill, I know it will be only less than 2K and I wouldn’t feel bad because I know that I’m the only one who consumed it.

It’s my fault for letting this one slip me, I know I will hear people say “buts” and “why’s” to justify my stupidity, but I am the only one responsible anyway, so why listen to nuisances?

So now, I am found with Smartbro and Electric bills, and soon, I will be paying my rent, well, on the 25th of February.

So this is now my resolve, I will still continue renting here, but I will be scouting for a new place, one that doesn’t live under a building -it’s been two months that I haven’t had any mornings with sunshine and bird chirping. I’m a big fan of nature.

Since my daughter has been expressing her desire to move to my son’s school (they also have elementary), I guess as a mother I should know best and follow my motherly instincts. I know that deep down, my daughter has something that she wants to tell me, she just couldn’t find the right words or the right time. Most of the time, she finds solace in my embrace and she just keeps quiet. She’s still a bubbly and playful girl, and I can only surmise that she’s on the stage where she’s also looking for a father’s attention. Something that I won’t be able to give. A lot of times, I have to tell myself that I’m not a man, and I can’t replace a father’s love.

My son on the otherhand, seems to be satisfied with his life right now. Although, he’s having those pam-pam moments due to some gf issues. Yes, he has one, I don’t have any problems with it, as long as there’s no sexuality involved, he won’t hear anything from me, and he knows me well. He’s still proving his worth, but I always have to remind him to work for himself not to please anyone else. Because in the end, knowing yourself is different from people saying that you’ve changed. You could have changed for the better or for the worse, and the latter is often a trap we get ourselves into.